yesterday i was wondering if i was going to get thru tomorrow... well that tomorrow is today, and im surprised ive made it this far.

so i didnt think that for my 18th birthday i would be getting to start my life all over again. for my 18th birthday i get to start off with a clean slate. i will be 18 and re-learning [yet again] all the things i used to be scared of. i will be ONCE AGAIN unfamiliar to things.

i should take this in with open arms. as wide as they can possibly span. and i will. i making this positive, and im making this work out to my benefit. ive learned so much in the past, growing up to this point. and now i get to switch once more, and learn even more. it will start a new chapter in my life. and its going to force me to grow up even faster than i already have been. its going to force me to be strong, and learn how to embrace everything that life throws in my face.

im gonna do it.

i know i can do it.

its okay, im gonna be alright.

itll be tuff, im expecting it to be.

but the people that i have in my life right now, i am SO positive i will have for years to come. they will be there for me no matter what happens. i know it because theyve been there for me through some of the hardest times ever, and this should be nothing different.

so in closing, i hope to see myself succeed. i hope this is my chance to make something of myself. and make something of my name. i hope this is MY TURN to fill that little empty spot in my heart with happiness.

...but dont worry, i wont ever forget you

<333

[the waves are calling me, its my time to go]

p.s.: i always knew that one day i would be able to look back and smile at the times that ive cried... but i never knew that looking back at the times ive smiled would make me cry...