sitting on this computer, doing nothing with my time at this moment, my sister called me into the other room -

"julie, you might or might not want to see this"

naturally i got up, and walked into the room to my eyes being stuck on the tv. it was YCs new video. i miss them - i miss them being my favorite secret.and being able to consider them friends. there was only person i was more than happy to share them with, and she knows who she is. [she still is the only person i would want to share them with] [fuckin garner] ... while we're on this subject...she was right when she said that this band we went to see in AZ will be nothing more than a "cool NEW band" in another month or so. even tho when we were there we only got to see 2 songs. it was still awesome. just because they, were once again, our little secret. <3 'sometimes circles run around you....you know sometimes walls run into you'

next...

last night we lost our regional playoff game... to palo verde 2-1 with 2 mins left in the game. our dream was way too short lived this year...it wasnt supposed to happen this way. none of the girls were ready for it to end last night. there are so many things i could say about the game, about how its not fair ... my team did everything we needed to do to get the job done. and it just didnt happen. the only thing that would make sense ... is to blame it on fate. "it just wasnt supposed to happen" i feel like me being a captain of that team, i let them down. i was basically put in charge of that team. and us losing, just completely blows. 11 seniors wanted to leave highschool soccer with another shining ring on our fingers as a great accomplishment, and a great experience - repeated. it just wasnt meant to be i guess. that was my last soccer game ever. im not going back to playing for my club team... 14 1/2 years, and im finally done. <3

...its been my life, but now its time for new things...