okay...

my trip to chicago was amazing. i had a lot of fun seeing my family, and friends. i wouldnt have traded a minute of it for the world. right now, im finding out, that all the times ive said "everything happens for a reason" its truely proving to be correct. there are a lot of things going on in my life right now, but i believe that they are all happening to bring my family closer, and to help me discover myself... and my life.

things are changing.

god i hate that word. ...

i dont think ive ever been so afraid of it until now. ... while this change will bring me all of the things ive wanted for a really long time, this change will also tear me to shreads.

im scared. and ill be the first one to admit that. i wont even lie. im afraid that i wont make it- that i wont be okay. but then i just have to remind myself, that this is an act of fate- its taking me in the direction im supposed to head in.

this could either be success in one swift movement , or it could be complete destruction in one foul swoop.

i guess we'll see what happens.