im so confused on what to do.
its quite frustrating.

meanwhile - theres a boy. or a guy rather... scratch that - a young man
hes so adorable.
his laugh is one of the best things about him.
the fact that he came over this morning before he went to work, and layed around with me, was so comforting.
no one was home. given the circumstance, it was the perfect opportunity to take advantage of a situation like that. basically meaning we really couldve hooked up. done anything.
instead - we layed in bed, talked. watched the best of will ferrell, and made out alot.
im not used to a guy like him. maybe its just because hes older, and definitely treats women like gold.
he already treats me so well, and its just the little things.
his kisses, are soft and playful.
theyre really really good. =] hah.
he didnt try anything .
and thats such a good feeling. im willing to bet that we wouldnt have even kissed the first night, if i didnt make the move.
hes much too respectful.
and thats so attractive.
hes completely open. he wants to be verbal about everything. he asks me questions, and TELLS me what hes thinking.
and i havent had that in so long. i havent been with a guy that will actually voice his feelings, and emotions. on top of that - i dont even get ONE little inkling that hes not being truthful and honest.
i can see it in his eyes.
theyre so kind, and big, and blue.
when he says that im beautiful, its easy to tell that hes sincere about it.
he has no hidden agenda.
he wonders why i sit and stare at him. and when i do, he asks "what are you doing that for, are you trying to figure me out?"
...mmhmm... exactly. i sure am...
hes not hard to figure out.
hes a softie. a sweetie.
hes afraid, and i can tell.

i dont want to break his heart.