i didnt want this to happen again.
i adored that fucking kid.

im alone. and being alone is fine with me, just not right after a breakup.

it hurts so fucking bad. i think even worse than last time. last time i knew for months at a time what it was like to be without ross. jeremy ad i spent a lot of time together. its now hitting a week and its starting to settle that hes not coming back.

i want him to come back.

im supposed to "talk" with him tonight after the show, however ive discovered that its a late show. over at at LEAST midnight. then i have to wait for him to finish working, THEN i have to talk to him. shit might not end til wee hours of the morning. then i have to drive home, in an emotional state probably and then wake up for class in the morning.

so maybe i'll just go to the show, and come home.

this kid is killin me. im killin me.

why is he willing to overlook me.

i dont want him to overlook me.

i should've watched my fucking back, and protected my fucking heart.

but believe me, i DONT regret a THING.