do you know how desperately i wish you to come back from traveling, have re-arranged thoughts, and feelings and come back to me?

i want to take you back.
i want you to look at me and fucking say, "julie, i want to be with you"

and fucking hell jeremy. i will take you back. i swear to fucking god i will take you back.

holy fucking shit. i should be over this by now. i dont understand it.
ive said this a million times before, but ive never ever ever been this confused in my life when it comes to a relationship.
MAKE SENSE TO ME, PLASE.

i know you cant do this well. but i hope that with everything i have, you tell me every feeling you have in your heart. I WANT TO KNOW IT ALL.
when you look at me, when you think of me, when you DONT think of me, when you remember me, when you forget me, when you wish you were still with me, when you have feelings for me, when you WONDER if those feelings are true at all, when you dont want to be with me. when you have sex with me. i want to know.

fucking tell me.
god dammit.
im going insane.

i dont need you to survive.
i dont even need you to be happy, for christs sake.
i just need you because, i DO. i just need you.
somehow, somewhere i know you need a little bit of me too.

help me understand.

you're leaving soon, and i want to know.
you're leaving soon, and either i need to hold on, til you get back... or i need to let go, so that by the time you DO come back, i will be done with this.