its a serious question that i have...

realistically, i should be over this. done with thinking about you EVERY DAY, done with STILL crying over you EVERY OTHER DAY and done questioning and wondering what will ever happen with "US"
we dated for 5 months.
that was all including me meeting you, kissing you, sleeping with you, having an amazing relationship and then you breaking up with me. 5 months. total.
you ended it on october 9th.
it is now december 30th [almost]
and im still stuck on you.
im still crying, im still upset. im still wishing and hoping, im still trying to figure out WHY.

im still driving myself insane over you.
and i dont think that its a good thing. ive spent almost 3 months doing this. which is more than HALF of our relationship.....

HOW MUCH MORE PATHETIC DO I NEED TO BE IN ORDER TO JUST GET OVER YOU.

holy fuck.

i need help.
my heart hurts.
my brain is exhausted.
im tired of thinking about you, and how i dont have you anymore.
its a constant tug on my heart strings.
its a constant tease in my life.
it is a constant reminder that i fucking SUCK at relationships.
it is an ongoing problem that im having.

i just want you.
i just want to be with you.
i dont want to let you go- and i dont want to see you leave.
i just want to have you come back to me.

jeremy michael miller.

im clearly insane.
shoot me.